Life after High School?

I am a 16 year old senior in high school. People ask me all the time what my plans are and what I want to do. I often hesitate because my dreams are very different than the dreams of the people around me. I don’t want people to judge me or think I am stupid for going into an art field rather than something more traditional. For example, my sister is a nurse and one of my brothers is at Harvard. You read it right, he is at Harvard. Therefore, I just feel like I will never live up to my siblings’ accomplishments.

Four people in my family are nurses. I don’t want to be a nurse. I used to want to go into the medical field but then I realized I am a HUGE germaphobe and that could never happen. I want to do something different. I always have. I wanted to go to culinary school and then that changed. I always have different interests: I like cooking, music, fashion, art, etc. The one that has stuck with me is fashion.

I wish I had enough talent to design clothing but sadly I don’t. I would love to do anything fashion. I have thought about fashion journalism which would be absolutely amazing. That is the main reason I started this blog, just to get started somewhere. I would also go into fashion marketing or merchandising if I could. I just want to be somewhere I love. I want to come home from work and not be sick of my job. I want to wear the clothing I want. I want to be happy. I think that is the most important thing about a job. But what do I know?

So with all of this said, I want to go into the fashion industry. I have started to care less about what people think about it because it’s not their future, it’s mine.

This is what I want to do.


My people.

I think it is really beneficial to have a good set of friends. I have always struggled with friendships. I would have people who I thought were my best friends but it turned out that they weren’t. I had a really good best friend, or so I thought, until one day at a football game she said “you’re kind of annoying sometimes, I don’t really know why I am friends with you” or something of that matter. At that moment, I knew that it was a toxic friendship and I haven’t talked to her since. I then went on to have no friends. Absolutely none. My only friend was my mom and do not get me wrong, my mom is still my best friend but I needed people my age to hang out with. I was ready to convince my mom to homeschool me so I wouldn’t have to go to school alone. But then it all changed.

I met this girl named Tianna. We clicked instantly and became best friends. She is still a really good friend of mine and we talk almost every day but she moved so I don’t get to see her all the time ):

But the fall of 2019, I became close with three different people. Three different friend groups which means we don’t all hangout but I hope that changes one day. Three different people whom I trust whole heartedly.

Not in any different order because I love them all the same.

First is Olivia, we are literally the same exact person. emotionally and physically (because we have heard that we look alike). I met her because her boyfriend is my boyfriend’s best friend. I am so happy I met her. I knew of her from school but we had never actually hung out or anything, or even talked. We are both quiet at first and we both love marvel. She is Spiderman and I am Iron Man. She knows exactly what to say to calm me down and me to her. It’s like we are in each other’s minds. We have only known each other for about four months but I just know that she is a forever friend.

Next is Elizabeth. We met in the 7th grade but we didn’t talk that much. We became close through gym class but then fell off until 9th grade when we had art together. We started talking more and more and even had a Stranger Things fan account (how cringe is that??). Then we fell off again until our senior year. We both are graduating early so it wasn’t a two-year time jump, though. We started going to church together, we did homecoming together, and we started actually talking. We are very similar emotionally and our family situation is similar so we relate to each other a lot. We trust each other to the grave. She’s the Damon to my Enzo.

Last, but certainly not least is McKenzie. We met while I was in 6th grade and she was in 7th. We became super close, hanging out every weekend and doing things every day. We cheered together but once she went to high school, we just stopped talking often. However, she is a person where I could go months without talking to and then we hangout for 10 minutes and NOTHING seems different. Since we are both seniors now, we have a class together so I see her every day and she literally knows everything about me. She is my girl and always has been.

In addition to these three girls, I obviously have my mom, my sister, and my soon to be brother in law, Jake, who will always be my sidekicks. And I have my boyfriend who has become my best friend as well. I have come to realize who my real friends are and who will make me the best me and these are my people. always.

There are going to be people in life that are not good for you. You have to realize that God put them in your life for a reason. He wants you to learn from mistakes and situations, just like I did.

“Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.”

Eleanor Roosevelt
  • I know the quote is kinda cheesy but it is SO true.